embrace the awkwardness?

I really hate awkward situations.

Well, that's not entirely true. I don't mind awkward silences when it's between me and a friend who also is aware of the awkwardness...I feel at that point the silence is no longer awkward, but comfortable. Sometimes.

And I don't mind awkward situations like when I have to tell someone that they need to wear something more appropriate to mass. I'm one of the sacristans at SRBCNC and so if one of the liturgical ministers is wearing clothing that reveals too much, then I'm usually the one who volunteers to talk to the person...granted, I can't remember the last time that happened, but I really don't mind it...especially since I know going into the conversation that it's going to be awkward, so I'm prepared for it.

The awkwardness I don't like is the kind when you go up to someone and introduce yourself and try to make small talk and eventually run out of things to ask/say. It's not always the case that they're boring and don't have much to contribute to a conversation, or that they really just don't want to talk to you...but usually just that you both recognize that the conversation has become awkward because you're just standing there looking at the wall, ceiling, floor, anything besides each other...

But maybe these situations are a lesson in disguise? You know those people who when you first meet them they're just very welcoming and friendly and you never feel awkward around them for whatever reason? Maybe it's their inner self-confidence coming to the surface, or maybe it's that they really are interested in what you have to say, or maybe it's that they constantly have something to talk about. I'm not sure, but the people I'm thinking of right now also happen to be the people who when you first meet them, you instantly want to be friends with them. You're not always sure what it is about them that makes their friendship seem so intriguing, but it's there and you want to be a part of it.

well, that's my rant for today...I strongly doubt that anyone has ever read these posts..which is alright with me. I have this crazy dream that someday my blog will be super popular and people will read it everyday because I write such profound, yet witty, posts. There's just one problem with that...I'm not that witty :]